The only label that never goes out of style

Carrie Bradshaw said...

"Some labels are best left in the closet. And we were dressed from head to toe in love… the only label that never goes out of style."

Soldier moves on...

Okay so the soldier has left the valley, aka 'heaven on earth' today for his next abode...Ludhiana! It's weird why this should make a difference to me at all. But for some reason, it does. I realise how I'll always associate that place with him. Srinagar means him. Apples mean him too! hehe

His moving on to a new place is also indicative of something I now understand...with much difficulty. Whatever it was that we shared, may or may not be anymore. Que sera sera.

Going to Ajmer next weekend. Quite excited about the trip. Already listening to 'Khawaja mere khawaja...dil mei samaja.' This is going to be my second trip this year to a place of immense religious importance. I think I can finally see my spiritual side evolving. Well, everyone needs some sort of faith after all.

Masochistic me!

I feel I've developed a taste for torture...torturing myself that is. I keep doing the same things that would give me pain...keep thinking the same things that would squeeze my heart like a sponge. And there's a certain pleasure I derive from all this. It's nearly madness--preferring the disagreeable to the agreeable, loving pain and its darker night, despair, wanting to die in a catastrophe that will set back life to its beginnings. An overwhelming desire to let the tides flow, even though they flow over me. It's like a blind surrender--the feeling of having trusted and been fooled coming back again and again.

Like Meredith says in Grey's Anatomy:
But maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

My candle burns at both ends;

It will not last the night;

But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends

It gives a lovely light.

*Chumma!!!

It's part laziness and part lack of time that I haven't blogged for quite sometime now. There's nothing much that drives me to thinking right now. Which is good in a way..just letting it be.

Just realised how September is almost over and October is just round the corner. It's birthday time! :) Making lots of promises to myself, so really looking forward to 'MY' new year.

Isn't it funny, how the last few months of the year pass more quickly than the first half of the year...wonder why? I guess, the last part of the year brings lots of good things and keeps you busy. It's the start of the long festive season. Then there's a family wedding this time. Birthdays and anniversaries. Sister will be home in December. Looking forward to a holiday with her. Christmas. A new year! Warm winter sun...ah I love that last bit especially.

*Chumma=Simply